I saw you the other day
passing me by in the crowd.
I almost reached out
nearly said ‘He…’
but I kept on walking
through faces,
smile-less
like I was this city’s greatest misanthropist.
I saw you the other day
passing me by in the crowd.
I almost reached out
nearly said ‘He…’
but I kept on walking
through faces,
smile-less
like I was this city’s greatest misanthropist.
Arrive screaming.
Drink milk,
sit up,
smile,
take first steps.
Join school.
play,
write,
read;
adore a deity.
Learn,
learn,
learn.
Leave school.
Get job,
join a pension scheme,
a gym
a funeral indemnity.
Just in case.
Earn a promotion.
meet a girl,
fall in love,
get a mortgage,
buy a house,
have two children.
Work 9-5,
come home,
eat your dinner,
go to bed,
start again.
Work 9-5
come home
eat your dinner
go to bed
start again.
While he’s in the shower
she opens the laptop
and scans his emails.
He wafts into the room,
What’re your plans today? he asks,
smearing body lotion into his chest.
Rain slams against the skylights.
Housework, she says,
watching him dress;
consumed by the belt
tightening
around his waist.
In the mirror he cups his hands,
teases his tousles,
mumbles, I’ll be late tonight.
She logs into her emails,
begins a new message:
Dear David,
By the time you get this message…
She stops.
Looks at the photo of them
iron-framed
on the bedside table.
His arms around her,
he smiles with vacant eyes.
She types again
as he walks towards the door.
Bye, he calls, in a sing-song voice
Bye, she writes,
lifting the duvet,
feeling the cold wood against her feet
Love took up new hobbies.
Love bought a ukulele,
a harmonica,
then tried to play
them at the same time,
like Love’s
Muse
had at first sight.
But the duff notes
and clumsy strumming
failed to impress Muse
so the music ceased
and Love blew
sorrow into the air
in despair
before wondering
why Lust got all the good gigs.
There is much to do.
There is the table
I sat at, writing.
There is the sofa
from which
I saw little
but parked cars
and the rows of windows
in the two up
two down
terraced houses
of this street.
There is much
to do,
much to read
much to write,
yet the infrequent footsteps
of passers-by,
deep in thought
about the lunch
they just ate,
punctuating the scene
of parked cars
and rows of windows,
holds my attention
for so long
that, until a dog barks
and a driver beeps a horn
at a cyclist ringing his bell,
and my own world wakes up again,
I am the lifeless street
of windows,
the parked cars,
and I am the thoughts
of infrequent passers-by
deep in thought
about the lunch just eaten;
unaware of what it’s like
to have
just sandwiches
to think about.
I am British
happy most when miserable.
I am British
happy most when reading tabloids.
I am British
happy most when outraged.
I am British
happy most with my own opinions.
I am British
and most happy with myself.
It wasn’t in good condition
it was a little frayed
I’d only had it cut last month
from my earned yet modest wage.
One day it wouldn’t go this way
one day it wouldn’t go that
most days I could do nothing with it
so hid it with a hat.
My boyfriend told me something
my boyfriend said, no jest,
‘If you do not sort out your hair
I’ll give you up, you mess!’
So I looked into the mirror
pulled from my head, my hat
then with a pair of shiny scissors
turned to this man and spat:
‘There’s many things I need to do
there’s many things I want
and there’s many things I’d do right now
‘cept anything YOU want.’
I knew he’d come straight for me
I knew he’d need to vent
so out I stuck those shiny scissors
and into his heart they went.
Now there’s no bad hair days
no more do I wear a hat
and when I do feel like a mess
I just remember that
my boyfriend can’t tell me anymore.